I miss my [family]

w/ my two daughters(Mariz & Starr) and granddaughter(Jebeh)

from Lea

"don't let your world revolve around one person because if that person decides to be someone else's orbit, you're going to be left revolving wrecklessly alone."

Ang lungkot.

Ang Kasamaan ng Pagpupuyat

Kanina, bago matulog, nakita ko na naman ang kanyang sulat.
Pano ba namang hindi, eh sadyang nakadisplay ito sa lamesang nakapuwesto sa dulo ng aking kama.
Ang sulat ay may mahigit na isang taon nang nakaraan nang ito ay naisulat at hanggang ngayon, isang beses ko pa lang iyon nabasa simula nang iyon ay aking natanggap. Sa tuwing ito ay aking nakikita, may halong tuwa, kilig at kaba ang aking nadarama.

Tuwa, dahil ito ay nanggaling sa kanya.

Kilig, dahil ito ay nanggaling sa kanya.

At kaba, dahil ito ay nanggaling sa kanya.

Kinuha ko ang sulat habang nagtatalo ang aking isipan kung ito ba ay aking babasahin muli o hindi.
Isang malakas na batok ang aking natamo mula kay Micko. Sukdulang napakalakas ng kanyang pagkabatok na ako'y nauntog sa dulong kahoy ng aking kama. Napuno ng bituin at constellations ang aking kuwarto sa tindi ng hilo na aking naramdaman. As in parang outerspace!
Malaking pasasalamat na lang at binawi ng aking mga magulang ang kanilang sinabi na si Micko ang ipinangakong lalaki sa akin, kung hindi, battered-wife ang abot ko sa kanya. Grabe, ang brutal.
Pagkatapos ko makakita ng mga bituin, si Micko ay nagsalita, "Basahin mo na kung babasahin mo. Hindi 'yung gabi gabi na lang tinititigan mo 'yan. Nagpapakatanga ka sa isang sulat!"
Maryosep. Tama ang brutal na lalaki.
Tumigil ka, gaga, isa lang 'yang sulat.
Kaya binuksan ko naman ang sulat at nagsimulang magbasa. Pagkadating sa dulo kung nasaan ang kanyang nakapirmang pangalan, ang mata ko ay sukdulang magang maga na.
Ito ang kinatatakutan ko sa pagbasa ng kanyang sulat. Hindi ang pag-iyak kundi ang magiging rason ng aking pag-iyak.
Ako ay nakaramdam ng matinding panghihinayang at pagsisisi (hindi ba't magkapareho lang 'yun?). Mukhang hanggang dito na lang dahil ito ay isa sa mga maraming kamalian na malabo nang maayos.
Kaya pinunasan ko ang aking mga mata at mukha na nagmistulang swimming pool ng luha, lumabas sa veranda at nagyosi.
Ngunit anak ng! Ayaw magpaawat ng mga namamaga kong mga mata at tuluyan itong lumuha, dahil alam kong kahit na ilang yosi ang hithitin ko, hindi ko na maibabalik ang dati niyang nararamdaman para sa akin.

Nang dahil sa sulat, nawasak na naman ang buhay ko.

Nang dahil sa sulat, nawala na naman ako sa aking sarili.

Nang dahil sa sulat, naramdaman ko na mahal ko parin pala siya.

Nang dahil lang sa sulat.

I miss ate Minmin

From: Ms. Lagud's blog
Published on: July 24, 2004
Title: i love...

i love my advisory class. i love the 50 souls under the section II-Banaag, schoolyear 2004-2005. they may get to the nerves of most teachers because they say they're difficult to discipline, but i don't know why i understand them. i sometimes fear that it may be because i don't know how to get mad and i'm tolerating their misbehavior but i think they're really not as bad as they seem to be. you just have to get their attention, make them realize that you understand them and then connect with them -- ika nga, kunin ang loob nila. (haay, one more week before the start of my classes in moving from childhood to adulthood, 'hope i'll really get to learn more about teens these days) i just wish that whenever the teachers complain about them -- "haay, ang ingay ng Banaag!", "yang si __ kausapin mo ha, ganito na naman ang ginawa", "disaster na naman ang Banaag"; they also remember how they did when they had their retreat. i was so proud of them then. they gave their best at the celebration of the Mass... what a beautiful rendition of Panunumpa during Communion! as gratitude to their parents, they prepared a wonderful presentation. they remembered to thank me and gave me flowers too :) i hope that the teachers keep in mind too that they are capable of winning (e.g. in the poster-making contest, in a group activity in one of the level talks) hehe, i thus always remember the words: "he has the face only a mother can love." others may call them the worst bunch of sophomores, but i'll always be there for them :) i just hope that even after this year, or their high school graduation, or their college graduation, or 10/20/50 or so years from now, they'll still remember me, because i will always have a special place in my heart for them :)

Aww!!!! Same goes here Ms. Lagud. II-Banaag extremely misses you!
btw, thanks for the round thingy for the ID..it's soooo sweet and touching.
love you ms!!!

It's not about you. It's about them.

Yesterday, March 27, 2007, I have witnessed a very dramatic hostage-taking by a man who was asking for education for the children who are penniless. He took over a bus with 154 innocent children in it and mercilessly put their lives at risk. I cannot believe how selfish a man like him could get but at the same time, his purpose for doing that stupid thing was for the sake of others and not just for him. He wanted to give those children education because as much as he wanted to help them financially just to send them to school, he does not have enough money to do so.
But engaging himself into a scandalous drama such as hostaging 154 INNOCENT (and for Pete's sake..) little children!! It's such a stupid, stupid thing to do, and no matter what his intention was, may it be for the children or whoever, it still is SELFISH.
I felt so bad for the little kids. Damn. Kawawa naman sila!!!!!!
At an early age they got traumatized. All because of that man's selfishness.
HE KNEW BONG REVILLA AND CHAVIT SINGSON!! So why in the world did he have to do that? He could've just asked for their help.
I hate him. I hate him so so so so soooooo much. Because I have a great care for little children. The ones they so often say who are, "Ang pag-asa ng bayan. Sakanila nakasalalay ang kinabukasan ng Pilipinas." All of those words are just words if they disrespect those little kid's poor innocent lives.
He could've done it in a better, more quiet and less scandalous way but he didn't.
I even watched the live news coverage from CNN. Not from a local TV station, even though the news was on every local channel. The other countries will see AGAIN how stupid we, Filipinos, are. Naku, nadamay nanaman tayo.

300

From a very gay Multiply entry:

Aahaaay chorva!Di kinaya ng powers ko ang kahotness ng movieness na itetch! It's raining men! (haleluya)! like go go go mga anik anik at ang mga mudra mega taray ang haba ng hair production number clothing designer eklavu powerness! kaboom!It's like go papa spartans! go delisyus fighting karne! i get so weak on the knees i can't hardly breath go go go! spapartans make bugbog the evil persia! make warla the queen xerxes.

At antaray naman ng lolaaaaaa xerxes mooooooo! nagmamaasim ang fingerlets ng hinawakan si spapartan head papa! ang entrance pang vilma with matching solid gold dancers itetch! with diamente ala maricel! wiiinnneeeeeer! ang eye brows ha! mega shoot to the stratosphere sa katarayan!

Ang warlahan ditetch daig pa ang rineregla sa dami ng vlood! at ang nacut neck na cutie spartan...nag cryola aketch! di kinaya ng emoticons ko ang death by tamponess ng cutie spartan. huhuhu.

I'm sure proud si mother ricky dahil ang ganduuuuuuuuh talaga ng movieng itetch. like super mega walang halong chorva!

PERO LYER SILA! binilang ko ang mga papa...di umabot ng 300. 127 lang ang mga spapartans! etchos!=)) =)) =))

HAHAHAHAHAHA okayyyyyyy.

How gay can this movie review get?! =)) soooooooo fannnnyyyyy :))

E7ite RocksMyWorld

I'm officially an Alumna of The School of the Holy Spirit of Quezon City!!! Yay!! Party Partaaaaay!!

"I did it I did it, oh yeah yeah yeah!!! No eating for tonight wooo eating for tonight! No no no eating for tonight! We're on a diet!"

Hahahaha :))

So so so HAPPY!!!!

Last night when we were singing our graduation songs, I looked at my batchmates and they were crying!!! Mygawwwd. I thought my feelings and emotions froze and my heart turned into a rock! Waaa.

But no. The truth is, I was just super duper happy!! Because, Hello??? Tonight is our graduation and that sooo means that we're sooo free!!

I must admit, leaving the school after the graduation rites last night was somewhat hard but I my stomach growled with emptiness, so I left. Hahaha But seriously, I miss my school and I will forever miss it :)

Oh yeah, when we were singing the School Hymn I suddenly fell from the platform/beam where I was standing on. Mygod!! So I just laughed and laughed and laughed the whole entire song and even after it I was still laughing. Good thing no one saw, I think, because no one commented on it. Hahaha I wonder if my boyfriend saw it. hmm? Shoot. It's so embarrassing.

Gagraduate na nga lang mahuhulog pa sa platform. Anak ng tepok nga naman...Arghhhh.

ooohh..VAINNNNNNNNN.

Who do they think they're fooling?!

That assface told our CL teacher that we're not working together in the Social Doctrines project.
True.
She also said that she approached me TWICE.
False.
And she has already made the project.

What the teacher said?
"Yung project ni Rosa tatanggapin ko kasi nag-approach naman siya kay Ja. Pero 'yung project ni Ja hindi ko tatanggapin kung mag-isa niya 'yun ginawa."
CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?! That is downright favoritism right at our faces.

How stupid can that decision be? I mean, the 'other girl' clearly stated that she has already made the project. What the hell am I supposed to do?? Talk to her like there's no problem and tell her that, "Yeah, okay. Put OUR names in that project because I contributed a LOT!!"

Whatever. I passed the required project and if she does not want to accept it, then Good! If I get a failing grade in CL because of that, even better!

I am so sorry to say this but, I really can't believe that she became a teacher in the School of the Holy Spirit of Q.C. If she was in a public school, that I may believe, but in Holy?! My god!! Can she just stop pretending that she's such a good teacher?? Better yet, she can just quit her job. I don't think anybody in our batch thinks that she's soooooooo good. The world needs a miracle before that happens.

As for the 'other girl', STOP LYING and stop PRETENDING.
You try to show the people that you are such a fucking nice girl, but the truth is you are not.
You talk behind someone else's back, you lie about EVERYTHING, you steal girlfriends (yes, people. She is a lesbian.), and you irritate me!!!
Stop pretending that you're okay because it totally shows that you are not.


You're messing with the wrong girl.

Projects galore

PHYSICS
Investigatory Project Oral Defense
March 2

CL
Social Doctrines
March 1

MUSIC
Finale
March 2

COMPUTER
Website design
March 12

ENGLISH
Social Action Paper
March 1

HEALTH
Research paper and reporting
March 1

TEENSTAR
Personal Response
March 9

Goodluck to me!!!
This is torture I tell you. It's torture!!!