I can't let you go.

Hindi ako maka-tulog all because of my stupid blog.

Hello?! Ang abnormal ko talaga kasi gumawa ako ng bagong blog and it's all made up at may laman na nga. But I only posted so that my new blog would have something in it. Kawawa naman kasi. Lol

But here's the thing, parang nagsisisi ako. I want to delete it. The new blog, i mean.

I would terribly miss my babyyyyyyyyyyy... This blog, i mean.

Kaso sayang naman 'yun layout. I spent hours on that layout. Fcuk.

Well kasi i had nothing to do ren naman, BUT STILLLLLLL. Sayang. hahaha

And besides, LOVE ko paren tong blog na toh.

You will always be my baby =) kahit na iniwan na kita.. Well not exactly but, you know.. lol

I sound so stupid again.

Uminom na naman ako mag-isa.

Damn Crazy.

Ang tapang pala ng Alize.

Sumakit ulo ko.

Heeh.

Fcuk taht.

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watch vlog # 1 first to know the reason behind it...

Optimistic

The people i hate now will eventually die anyway.

Every 18 minutes, some dies by suicide.

every 19 minutes, someone is left to make sense of it.

gloomy sunday

never listen to it...
i swear to god i'm losin' it..

I'm so fed up with EVERYTHING

Fake people, lies, hell I'm fed up with LIFE.

And everytime the doctor asks me, "Can you be safe outside the hospital?" I answer, "yeah I guess"

But am I really?

Am I ever gonna be stable enough that I can be truly safe?

I want that more than anything. But I feel as if I'm running on a treadmill, exerting all my energy and giving it everything I got but getting nowhere.

And I'm tired. I want to quit. And someday I might. I don't know.

I'm not exactly suicidal.. but I'm definitely on the edge, I've been pushed right up onto that edge and I'm so close to falling off or maybe being forced to jump.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm running out of the energy it takes to resist killing myself. It takes energy you know, lots of it.

I can't say no much longer

I don't know how I've lasted this long.

I don't feel safe, not right now.

I'm at the point where I have nothing left to hold onto, nothing to keep me here.

And I'm scared. =(

I'm at my wits end.

I don't want to live.

It would be so much easier...

They say, words can kill a person...

but really, i think it's the lack of words that kills

Die janelle, die.

And i am aware its not the smartest thing to do. So you say "well then why do it?" because i don't care. I don't value my life and you can gasp and hem and haw. But i don't. I quite simply feel drained. Don't judge me. Please. Trust me when i say you have no idea. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. This is pointless.


I don't see a reason to continue living in this hell.

My whole world is a mess right now

And no, i'm not just being a stupid emo teenager. Everything is going wrong. I'm not even going to explain. Period.