i have this BOX where my heart used to be...

It feels like, I've gone from that point to this point. Now I'm back from that point...going to...I'm not sure where...
Tangina. Pa-ikot ikot lang ako. I should have known.
But my stupid self insisted that, No. Hindi ka na babalik sa dati.

All I'm asking is
Lord God,
PLEASE enlighten my heart and mind. I'm so tired in dealing with this kind of situation. If this is Your way of making me give up, well, I don't think I'm ready to. Ang tanga tanga ko na. You know so well that I never learn from my mistakes. Ibahin Mo na ko.
If I can't stay away from them, sila na mismo ilayo Mo sakin.
I know it's too early for this prayer to You, Lord God. But I think we both know what might happen soon.

I'm scared :'(

I ask You to give me strength. I'm too fragile.
I'm already broken. Please don't make me worse.

Thank You for giving me Myk.
He's one BIG reason why I haven't pried my tonsils out of my throat :
I just pray that he's going to be my last bestfriend.
I'm tired of having to find a new one just because I want one. Which sucks because it only proves that I'm afraid to be alone :'(

Please and Thank You.
Amen.



It's not a "thing". So don't take it if you're just going to use it.


Ugh. Sick.